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I Am Called to Be Different

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    For most of my life, I felt different. I don't compete with others, and I try not to compare myself to anyone because I've never felt like "most people." That has been true for as long as I can remember. For many years, though, I fought against that reality. I tried to fit in. I tried to be accepted. After experiencing ridicule and rejection, I thought that if I could become more like everyone else, maybe I would finally belong. But no matter how hard I tried, I was never truly accepted by the world. Ironically, I spent years longing for the very people and things that could never satisfy the deepest needs of my heart. Today, I can honestly say that has changed. I no longer desire many of the things the world once promised me. My identity is no longer found in people's approval but in being a child of God. I have learned that being different was never my weakness—it was part of God's design. He was separating me for His purposes long before I understood wh...

I Remember When...

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 I remember when I loved others more than I loved myself. There was a time when I didn't consider my own needs. I spent my energy chasing after people—men, relationships, friendships, and even family—hoping that if I loved enough, gave enough, sacrificed enough, I would finally receive the love, acceptance, or security I was searching for. I didn't realize that I mattered too. I poured from an empty cup, often abandoning myself to keep others comfortable. I overlooked red flags, ignored my own pain, and settled for less than I deserved because I didn't yet understand my worth. Looking back, it's painful to watch. Not because I was foolish, but because I was searching for something outside of myself that only God could truly establish within me: my identity, my value, and my sense of belonging. Nothing lasting came from chasing people. Chasing left me exhausted, disappointed, and disconnected from the person God created me to be. Healing taught me a different way. I lear...

For Healing... the Wound Must Be Exposed

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There is a reason doctors cannot properly treat a wound they cannot see. If a wound is covered but never cleaned, it may appear to be healing on the surface while infection continues underneath. Eventually, what was ignored begins to affect the entire body. The same principle often applies to emotional, relational, and spiritual wounds. Many of us were taught to hide our pain. We learned to smile when we were hurting, remain silent when we were confused, and protect family secrets at the expense of our own healing. We became experts at surviving while quietly carrying wounds that no one knew existed. For years, I believed that ignoring the pain would somehow make it disappear. It didn't. Hidden Wounds Don't Stop Hurting Unresolved trauma has a way of revealing itself in unexpected ways. Sometimes it looks like anxiety. Sometimes it looks like anger. Sometimes it looks like people-pleasing, perfectionism, fear, emotional numbness, or difficulty trusting others. We may spend year...

Guard Your Focus

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  Through prayer, awareness, intentional living, and the Word of God, We can learn to guard our focus, renew our minds, and cultivate what brings life, peace, and purpose.   Not every thought deserves attention. Not every voice deserves agreement. Not every distraction deserves energy. Today, I choose to be mindful of what I consume, what I believe, and what I allow to grow within me. 🌿 Guard your focus. 🌿 Renew your mind. 🌿 Walk with intention. Because Holistic Wellness Matters.

A Letter of Gratitude

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  To the person or people who became part of a chapter of my life that I will never forget, There are some things I have wanted to say for a long time. I do not know where you are right now, whether our paths will ever cross again, or if you will ever read these words. Still, I felt it was important to express what has been on my heart. Thank you. Thank you for an experience that challenged me, confused me, stretched me, and ultimately changed me. When our conversations began, I was in a very different place in my life. I was struggling in ways that many people could not see. I was carrying emotional burdens, battling chronic depression, and moving through life without fully recognizing the purpose God had placed within me. At the time, I did not understand what was happening. There were conversations, moments, and experiences that left me with more questions than answers. Even today, there are things I cannot fully explain. Yet as the years have passed, I have come to realize that...

Strength for Uncertain Days

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Finding God's Peace, Power, and Presence When Life Changes Without Warning   I'm so thankful for what the Lord has done. God is good. His power is real, and the devil is a liar. Looking back over this season, I realize something changed in me. God didn't remove every difficulty/hardship, but He gave me more strength than I knew I had. When my family received the devastating news that my niece had been shot, everything changed in an instant. Fear tried to overwhelm us, but faith reminded us that God was still alive and on the throne. As I entered the trauma unit, I pleaded the blood of Jesus over her life and declared His promises. Today, I can say with gratitude that God has carried us every step of the way. I believe her life is a miracle, and I know the journey of healing continues. One lesson has become even more real to me: having a relationship with God doesn't mean we will never face hardship. Jesus Himself said we would have trouble in this world. The difference ...

Sometimes Pressing Pause Is Healing

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  One of the greatest lessons I've learned on this healing journey is that healing isn't always about moving constantly. Sometimes it's about knowing when to stop. I recently had to pause my 365 Days of Healing series because of a critical family emergency. Out of respect for my loved ones and their privacy, I won't be sharing the details. I simply ask for your prayers and understanding during this time. At first, I wanted to push through. I wanted to keep creating, encouraging, and showing up every day. But I realized something important: I cannot pour into others when my own mind, heart, and body need rest. For many of us, especially those who have lived in survival mode, we believe stopping means failing. We feel guilty for resting. We think we have to keep going no matter what. But that's not what healing is about. Healing teaches us to listen to our bodies, honor our emotions, and trust God enough to step away when life demands our attention elsewhere. This pa...