About 20 years ago when my life seemed to be falling apart, I was doing everything I could to hold it together. I thought I had it all under control, but deep inside, I was silently breaking down. I kept everything bottled up—feelings, emotions, and even my pain. I pretended to be okay, but in reality, I was slowly losing myself.
In my teens, I started turning to substances, seeking temporary relief from the pressure that weighed heavily on my soul. By the time I reached my mid-20s, I had experienced alcohol poisoning, a wake-up call that forced me to stop drinking for a while. But the truth was, it wasn’t the alcohol that was the root of my issues—it was the emptiness I was trying to numb.
I was in an unhealthy relationship with someone who wasn’t right for me, a man I later found out was married. This was not the life I envisioned for myself, but I was so lost in the noise and confusion that I didn’t know how to escape. I had just received new information that my dad was alive and living in the UK which I did some massive research to find he was then in Canada, but it was very difficult to get answers or information. Chasing money became my new focus, thinking it would solve everything, but it only buried my problems deeper.
With each passing day, my smile slowly faded away. I was going through the motions daily, but I wasn’t really living. I became incapacitated—unable to speak more than a few words at a time. I didn’t understand what was happening to me, but those around me didn't really understand it either. After all, I was successful and making money. It seemed like everything was fine on the outside.
I sought help from professionals, but nothing seemed to work. Their solutions felt wrong, and I felt like a guinea pig in their hands. Years later I realized I wasn’t going to find the answers outside of myself. I turned to God, my Creator, the One who knows me and chose me. I learned to be still, to rest when I was tired, and to practice self-love and self-care.
Today, I don’t ignore myself anymore. I’ve become more aware of my own needs, and I listen to my body. I am grateful for the lessons I’ve learned and the strength I’ve gained through it all, my faith was strengthened. The journey to holistic wellness is ongoing, but I am confident that with God’s guidance, I will continue to overcome and grow.
I share my story because I know I’m not alone in this struggle. If you’re feeling lost, numb, or overwhelmed, remember that you don’t have to do it alone. There is healing and strength in turning to your Creator and taking care of yourself. Your journey to wholeness starts with one step: the decision to listen to yourself and trust in the process.
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Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV):
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Affirmation: I am at peace with my journey. I trust in God’s plan for my life and embrace each moment of growth. I release my worries, and I choose to walk in faith, knowing that I am whole, worthy, and loved.
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